On December 11, 2010 at 9:43pm, I had what Oprah Winfrey calls a "AHA" moment! While talking to a very dear friend of mine, I decided that at that exact moment I was going to be my biggest cheerleader! Not that I wasn't going to need encouragement from my family and friends, but in my quest to "Rediscovering Nikki," I came to the realization that in order for me to reach my goal I was only going to be successful if I believed and encouraged myself the most.
The week leading up to my "AHA" moment, I was at a breaking point in my life. I looked in the mirror and did not like who was staring back at me. Not only in the physical aspect, but the eyes that were once full of life, were instead lifeless. The optimistic and happy-go-happy Nikki was nowhere to be found. I would put on a huge smile in front of my family, friends and co-workers, but deep inside all I wanted to do was be alone and wallow in my sorrows. I was depressed because I did not like who I allowed myself to become and who I saw myself eventually turning into if I did not do something to rectify the situation, immediately. Until my "AHA" moment, I felt a sense of hopelessness, as I did not know where to begin my journey to rediscovering the Nikki that I once knew and loved so dearly!
With the New Year coming up in less than 3 weeks, I could have waited to begin my journey on January 1st like most people do; however, I refuse to live another day with the "new" Nikki and decided to start my journey immediately. I have set small, yet attainable, goals and will chronicle my successes and failures in a private journal, as well as my public blog. It may not always be pretty, but it WILL get done, because I can do ALL things Christ Jesus who strengthens me (Philip 4:13). Please take this journey with me as I "Rediscover Nikki!"
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